I’m in a right state this morning because I just don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to move forward. I don’t know why I can’t cope. I don’t know that there is any way out but death. I don’t know if I’m wasting everyone’s time. I don’t know if I’m doing the wrong thing. I don’t know if I should be doing more.
I just don’t know – I’m terrified.
Scared right to my core.
And sorry to have roped so many people into this with me. Sorry to cause worry and stress and work and confusion. But I’m terrified. Terrified of not being able to have a tolerable future – of either having to die or live in this same pain and distress. I’m working so hard to get better. I’m really trying to move forward; I promise that I’m putting my all into this. I’m terrified of remaining in this situation.
I just don’t know what to do.