One of those nights when I feel useless, worthless, hopeless, sad and achingly consumed with despair. At the end of my tether (again) and beating myself up for it. This fight is hard, too hard, and I don’t think I’m strong or brave enough to keep going much longer. I feel like I’m a drain… Continue reading Sorry for being an annoying, pathetic slug 😐
Trying to work on a brain as broken as mine feels like an overwhelming and even perhaps insurmountable task. Today I’ve been trying to view it a little like fixing a machine: yes, there’s a bloody long way to go, and we’re all a bit cautious of wading into the mess of ‘cogs’ due to the potential of bringing more trouble to the surface, but with the right tools – Hope, Patience, Psychology, Hard work, Mental Health Teams, Medication, Therapy, Not giving up, ME – and a bit of super-glue (Self-Compassion) to stick any broken bits back together and fix mistakes made along the way, it shouldn’t be impossible…
Or so I’m trying to tell myself!
I really liked this piece of advice from the crisis nurse who visited this morning. We were talking about how my psychologist had been trying to get me to approach my mental health and our work together without my unhealthy drive to achieve with perfectionism and avoiding my crippling fear of letting anyone down. This… Continue reading “If you try it out on ‘easy’ mode for now, at least you can accomplish the challenges and feel proud, moving on to ‘normal’ and then even on to hard as you feel able”