Oh. My psychologist thinks PTSD from horrific treatment/very nearly ‘complete’ suicide/CPR/’neurotic tirade’ of consultant/intense Trauma over the 6 month admission in another Trust. This is on top of everything else (Mixed Personality Disorder, Depression, Generalised Anxiety Disorder, suicidality), the very things I was in hospital for. 😢
Now I have to have more assessments. She’s very concerned that the 6 months of anniversaries coming up is going to make me relive it all even more intensely than I already do (not sure how that’s possible!). She wants me to be around good people as much as possible for support.
I am a total wreck of a human.
Later upon layer of pain and distress.
PTSD specifically due to the behaviour of mental health professionals, making it even harder than usual to reach out/accept help.
Trapped in horrific, unbearable emotional pain.
No way forward.