Oh. Another diagnosis?

Oh. My psychologist thinks PTSD from horrific treatment/very nearly ‘complete’ suicide/CPR/’neurotic tirade’ of consultant/intense Trauma over the 6 month admission in another Trust. This is on top of everything else (Mixed Personality Disorder, Depression, Generalised Anxiety Disorder, suicidality), the very things I was in hospital for. šŸ˜¢

Now I have to have more assessments. She’s very concerned that the 6 months of anniversaries coming up is going to make me relive it all even more intensely than I already do (not sure how that’s possible!). She wants me to be around good people as much as possible for support.

I am a total wreck of a human.

Later upon layer of pain and distress.

PTSD specifically due to the behaviour of mental health professionals, making it even harder than usual to reach out/accept help.

Trapped in horrific, unbearable emotional pain.

No way forward.

No hope.

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One thought on “Oh. Another diagnosis?

  1. Always hope always smiling always someone whom you can help always a way round always people who believe in you always a way to retrain your brain always sun even if it takes a while always some living being that needs you always will be and have been people who feel the same as you – YOU ARE NOT ALONE xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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