Life-threateningly poorly, call for medical help (and speak to lovely duty mental health worker over the phone, albeit from the wrong team because there was no answer from the crisis/emergency mental health team) but the only available solution was for the police to secretly be dispatched and make uninvited entry into my home. I admit the policeman was lovely but ill-equiped to treat me (obviously!) but also could not get hold of the required medical help for some time, so had to waste time sat with me not knowing what else to do.
Subsequent emergency specialists then refuse to see/speak to me and say they’ll phone tomorrow because I was so distressed previously that I didn’t manage to talk to them very much (or ‘refused to engage’ in their lingo)! Because that’s the way that life-threatening physical illness is dealt with…
Duty worker didn’t even think this was the way that life-threatening mental illness was dealt with in this situation. Maybe emergencies/lives only matter in mental health if the person finds it easy to talk or is violent?! Or maybe I’m right that I don’t deserve help and just waste everyone’s time?
And they wonder why I feel I have no hope and that crisis ‘support’ makes things worse in current circumstances.