Trigger Warning: Suicide
I won’t go in to specific details (although elements – but not all – will be easily deduced) but on Friday I fully intended to take my own life and made a very serious attempt at doing so…just a week after my last attempt.
After 3 days on a High Dependency Unit being heavily monitored and receiving treatment, I was told today that I have liver damage that doesn’t seem to be recovering.
However, I am incredibly fortunate to be being looked after by 2 amazing HCAs and a nurse who have spent hours with me tonight calming me from a hopeless sobbing mess (about how painful life is, about how I have destroyed my body, about how I am just not strong enough…the list goes on) into something much more passable as a human.
I LOVE wonderful NHS staff