Hope, Dream, Believe

I had a bit of fun with watercolours this morning, meaning it to just be some random doodling, but the colours really spoke to me and *ta da* this little spring-themed motivational piece appeared. I’m strangely taken with it.

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To the person who has been personally attacking me, on my most vulnerable posts

Luckily, WordPress is clever enough that your comments will no longer even be visible to me. This morning you asked me to seriously think about my motives behind sharing my thoughts, feelings and innermost struggles: now, I ask you to seriously think about your motives behind personally attacking someone who is clearly unwell and vulnerable,… Continue reading To the person who has been personally attacking me, on my most vulnerable posts

Sorry for being an annoying, pathetic slug :|

One of those nights when I feel useless, worthless, hopeless, sad and achingly consumed with despair. At the end of my tether (again) and beating myself up for it. This fight is hard, too hard, and I don’t think I’m strong or brave enough to keep going much longer. I feel like I’m a drain… Continue reading Sorry for being an annoying, pathetic slug đŸ˜

It’s just like mechanics…right?!

Trying to work on a brain as broken as mine feels like an overwhelming and even perhaps insurmountable task. Today I’ve been trying to view it a little like fixing a machine: yes, there’s a bloody long way to go, and we’re all a bit cautious of wading into the mess of ‘cogs’ due to the potential of bringing more trouble to the surface, but with the right tools – Hope, Patience, Psychology, Hard work, Mental Health Teams, Medication, Therapy, Not giving up, ME – and a bit of super-glue (Self-Compassion) to stick any broken bits back together and fix mistakes made along the way, it shouldn’t be impossible…

Or so I’m trying to tell myself!

“If you try it out on ‘easy’ mode for now, at least you can accomplish the challenges and feel proud, moving on to ‘normal’ and then even on to hard as you feel able”

I really liked this piece of advice from the crisis nurse who visited this morning. We were talking about how my psychologist had been trying to get me to approach my mental health and our work together without my unhealthy drive to achieve with perfectionism and avoiding my crippling fear of letting anyone down. This… Continue reading “If you try it out on ‘easy’ mode for now, at least you can accomplish the challenges and feel proud, moving on to ‘normal’ and then even on to hard as you feel able”