Painful Contradictions in Mental Health Treatment

I’m having a contrary time at the moment.

On the one hand, I am feeling incredibly awful – dealing with dreadful anniversaries, and a whole host of guilt, shame, self-hatred and fear that go with them.

On the other, I had the most positive CPA I could hope for today in terms of recognition of the work I am putting in to my placement (& the intensive therapy that is part and parcel), the progress I’ve already made, and everyone’s hopes for the positive trajectory of recovery they are currently predicting.

This second point is also making me guilty that I can’t “just be positive” and focus on the blessings of the help and support I am currently receiving that led to as yet unheard of positivity from everyone at the meeting (including myself). But here I am feeling overwhelmingly sad for all I’ve put those around me through and struggling to cope with that guilt.

To try to help get through, I was searching for a positive quote to paint as a reminder for myself, and this one struck a chord…

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“Because you are alive, everything is possible.” -Thich Nhat Hanh

Forget All That You’re Not

These beautiful words were shared with me today and I just wanted to pass this important message on…

…I hope you can take them to heart and try to remember all that you ARE rather than what you’re not.

What I Woke Up To This Morning

What I woke up to this morning, snuck up by the staff while I slept:
“Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must, but take the step.”

Past Me is Trying to Stop Me Giving Up

“The struggle you’re in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow. Don’t give up.” I just found this post-it stuck on a magazine that I never got round to reading during an horrific 6 month stay in hospital. The quote, written in my hand, couldn’t be more apt; right now I don’t want… Continue reading Past Me is Trying to Stop Me Giving Up

Some Wisdom From Dumbledore

It turns out that several members of the crisis team share my love for Harry Potter, and the following is a quote we’ve been discussing for a while… It’s a nice bit of wisdom, and lends itself to a pretty piece of art. Thanks to the crisis team and Dumbledore (erm, J.K. Rowling…) for getting… Continue reading Some Wisdom From Dumbledore