is a painting I did last week when really struggling; I just needed to get what I was feeling out so it is a rough, emotion-filled picture with no fore-thought or plan. It depicts the dark, overwhelming monster of mental illness feeding on despair and blocking out the colour of the world and vibrancy of life. It can feel like the very substance of ‘you’ is being sucked away, becoming more and more faint, dominated by this inexplicable darkness…yet you know that just out of reach is a colourful, textured and varied world.
Tag: art journal
CONSUMED. Almost gone….. (Visual Journal)
What it can feel like to be mentally unwell: CONSUMED by the void; almost gone…………………
Bottomless pit of darkness. Blank. Not human. (Visual Journal)
What it can feel like to be mentally unwell: bottomless pit of darkness within; blank mind; confused; empty; not human.
Dissolving Into a Puddle of Useless Sadness
Feeling hopeless and helpless. Useless beyond words. Darkness spreading to all that I touch; a shadow upon the world, fighting impossible internal battles to work out the least of all evils. Hating myself and my impact on those around me. Desperate for peace.
Barely Hanging on and Losing the Fight
Barely hanging on
Only by the tiniest of threads
That thread is painful and tearing me apart
So far gone that help (asking/accepting) is just dragging others with me
Losing grip fast…and I’ve already lost it completely on multiple occasions
Losing the strength to carry on fighting and holding on even faster
Terrified
Exhausted
Confused
Overwhelmed