I think this is the first time I have ever allowed myself to feel this emotion FOR not AGAINST myself.
First time in nearly a quarter of a century.
Trigger warning: discussion of suicide. I was supposed to die today. My plans were firm, my reasoning was definite in my head, I’d found ways to say goodbye without actually saying the words. I was meant to be dead. Then, in a frenzy, I had a phonecall from the crisis team manager who didn’t have… Continue reading A Befuddling Day